I don’t know…. I don’t know why I have these ups and downs of emotions and feelings. One day I feel like I could do ANYTHING… Anything I want and I see my journey right in front of me beginning. I feel like I have all the power of the world to do what ever I want…. and then… next day it’s just the other way around. The feeling that my dreams and plans are just way to big for me and that I will never going to manage all the stuff I want and have to do. Feeling of fear, confusion and dislike just overcomes me. I prefer going out just doing nothing, being with my friends and just forget about everything.
But that’s not the way it works… I know. But when the problems overcome you… sometimes you just need a time out. The hard thing is to get back on track. And that’s what I’m trying to do now. I need to get back and work hard. I have to stop letting me get distracted so easily and focus on important things for my future.
One good thing I have coming up soon: On the 11th of march was my 26th birthday and a lot of people participated in my birthday present and I collected money for a new lens for my camera. First I was going to get the Canon 24-70mm but after over thinking it a little bit I think I prefer the 24-105mm. So yes. I will order the lens one of these days and I will tell you more about it.
Love , Audrey =)